Loved

So going through the aftermass of the atomic bomb of what I used to call my room, I came across numerous things that I've lost over the time span of oh....6 years, which includes: my mom's sisscor sharpeners, my prostretch so that I could get rid of my shin splints, a couple of dead mouse bodies (Yuck...no those weren't lost..), one of my bosox hats (w00t), and then a couple boxes of shit that wasn't really missing.

Today I came across a bag full of stuffs from my HS graduation...
2 years 2 in 2 weeks whoosh, whered the time go.

Anyway,

Tons of Congrats grad cards, decided to look over them see what people had to say one last time before I chucked them (I'm trying to stop being a pack rat...I learned that I really don't have room for all this shit...and if Ima gonna move out netime soon, 1/2 this stuff has gotta go neway...). Reading through them, I became a huge pansy. Yes, a pansy. Tears began to fill my pathetic eyes. What is it with me lately, jeeze, becoming a freaking huge ball of emotions. This must stop. Blaming the weather.

I'm a unique person, intellgient, beautiful, etc...haha things that any person that has low self esteem like myself has a hard time beleiving...though I know I'm unique....sometimes...tooooooo unique haha.

I have people who I can count on, who will always be there for me no matter what. My old babysitter, who is now a friend of the family, wow, her card, it killed me, thats where I lost it. Just...ya this was it...

"Katie~
I found this card and had to get it for you. Its perfect that you love smiley faces because you face has always brightened every room you're in. I still remember the little 5 year old girl with the big beautiful smile and the long blonde hair. Now I look at you and see a beautiful woman but you still have the big beautiful smile and the long blonde hair. Time goes by so fast, always remember to keep smiling. We are so proud of you, you have worked hard and we know you'll go far. Always remember you have a lot of people who love you and will always be there for you. If you ever need anything I'm only a phone call or a car ride way. I love you.
Love Julie"


Yeh basically, huge Sally, gi-freaking-normous.

Emotions, go away THANKS.

I guess Ive come to realize that I'm not alone in this world...and this past couple weeks alone have shown me that...Even if I don't keep in touch with all of my friends from high school all the time, or even college for that matter...I know there will be certain ones who, like Julie, will always be there for me. Even if it comes down to bringing over a handle of shitty vodka to make things a little better, or send me stupid sticky fish in the mail, an IM/email calling me a crack baby, or a simple note reminding me of an inside joke, I know that I'll have people to count on..

Its the faith that people have in me that keep me going...

Thanks guys...I love you.

*Katie